I have the next 2 weekends planned back to back already, and I feel exhausted thinking about it. There's drinks with Dayu and colleagues on Friday, since he's leaving. I think I will actually miss having him around. Although I don't talk to him on such a regular basis, he has been a constant presence. Occasionally he veers into my "irritation" zone but most of the time, he has been helpful and even sweet. And I don't think I like change very much. So yes, his presence adds a sort of comforting continuity in the office. His departure is making me think about what I should be doing within the next 2 years. Whither my plans, I know not =)

Then there's that hectic Saturday, which I am working towards. It involves waking up at 7am, leaving the house at 830am, and ending with a BBQ at East Coast Park which should not end before 10pm. I really hope it works out. Things had not been smooth sailing so far. There has been more than the usual friction, and all these undercurrents which I am surprisingly able to detect (I am the worst judge of character and I usually ignore my intuition). But these are people with good intentions. Whether or not things have taken an odd turn, I'm sure it will work out. To digress a bit, I actually had to snap at S on Wednesday night because I wasn't able to get to him. He went on and on and on and didn't listen to what I had to say. Finally I couldn't take it and I snapped at him to get his attention. Later on, I felt really bad about it and text-ed him an apology. But I think, on hindsight, I would still have done the same thing.

Then there's the HK weekend... ... ARRGGGGHHH

I need a break. Now. I need to go somewhere away from the routine. I need to hibernate with one or two good friends in some faraway place. It's escapism in its purest form. Then I wouldn't have to think about what I need to do and the decisions I have to make (the church decisions!)