Sunday Musings

Today, God put someone in my life to give me a little prod, a few more answers to the conundrum. It was a random meeting after teaching Sunday School. I met up with a very very old friend whom I'm always bumping into in church but I just never got the time or made the effort to meet up with. We had coffee at the "ya kun"-lookalike near the church, and our conversation comforted me somewhat. It's His way of telling me that because I cannot hear from Him straight out, being both BLIND and DEAF to His word, He has kindly and lovingly sent people my way to explicitly guide me. I can't profess to know all the answers still, or to even be as convicted as before, but yes, I'm leaning towards the proper turn at the crossroads. Let's just say I am comforted. He has also given me a sense of how blessed I am. True, blessings go to those who do not believe. But I was struck with how minute my problems are compared to the bread and butter issues that others face. There is poverty and hardship everywhere and I have been too blind or too immersed in my own world to notice. And these problems sometimes come with their corollary issues like broken families, juvenile delinquence... the vicious cycle seems to win out. I met the cleaner of the toilet at the public swimming pool in Geylang Bahru, shuffling her bucket, her head bent low, mop in one hand. Instantly I was struck with a certain sadness and finality. And I was just thinking to myself how the whole place smells like pee, how I couldn't wait to get out so I could drive home to my nice comfortable toilet... As I passed her, I tried to establish eye contact and I said "Hi". She responded with "bye". It kind of rang in my ear as I left. I could have said more. I could have said thanks. But I didn't! And when I drove out, again, I met a small man who was crossing the road with a huge backpack, eyes down, feet shuffling, back hunched. This whole area - Geylang Bahru - has a very sad downcast feel to it, and I didn't like it. But it was like my spirit man waking up and reminding me that there was sadness and pain in this world, that there were people to pray for! And so I thank God.