Updates

Perhaps an update is in order. I've been visiting a few churches of late. To find out something about myself and to find out more about the God I serve and what it really means to belong to a church. I've been to Wesley, Covenant Evangelical Free Church, and Adam Road Presbytarian Church.

I didn't really like the traditional worship style of Wesley and how it felt so individualistic. People would sit by themselves or with just their other halves. And then they would leave right after. Cell group was an option. No one pushed you to attend. My friend W had been going to Wesley for years without even committing to a cell group and he had no impetus to join one! Same thing went for another friend of mine, before she decided to take that leap of faith.

I really really love CEFC. The message from Nehemiah spoke to me. It's a book I hardly ever touch and I have always dismissed it because I thought there were more important books to read. CEFC is like FCBC circa 2000. The worship is more subdued (but besides CHC, what other church can rival ours in terms of LOUD worship). More subdued but very refreshing. I think it's simple worship that is the most private. No jumping up and down required.

I think I like CEFC because it's like FCBC. I can't get used to ARPC and Wesley because they are so different from this church that I've been in for more than 14 years. 14 YEARS. That's more than half of my life.

But for certain big reasons, I can't go to CEFC. I think I will check out Lighthouse and see where this goes. There are no real plans to move yet. But I don't think I can give as much as FCBC and the leaders are demanding. It can't be ALL my life. God can, but now I feel a bit stifled, because I feel that CHURCH is demanding my 100%, and Church and God feels so separate nowadays. I need to come back to that first love.