blah...apathy

got the results for my bar today. i passed. it was a very anticlimax moment because basically everyone passed. and since i wasn't aiming for the top 20 places, i wasn't feeling very excited about it. I couldn't even feel worried about the results. i suppose that's a good thing? it went like this:

Friend X: "good new, no one at A&G failed!!"
Me: "Oh."

there was tremendous apathy at the subcourts today. didn't feel like talking to people. didn't feel like asking people the random questions about how work was, how their weekend went, the typical small talk. it's amazing how i still fail to know myself. at times, i think that small talk and getting to know new people is my domain. superficiality has been my mainstay. at other times, i feel like i'm the odd one out. the antisocial one. having to go the extra mile to be friendly and obliging. what's wrong?

things have settled somewhat. i wake up, attempt to jog, go to work, work, go home. on weekends, i go out, go church, blah blah blah. what's next?

p.s. my coffee cravings have become an addiction. I was actually nodding off most of the morning because I was SO SLEEPY. Kept thinking of my mocha valencia from starbucks.